myself again

Today is the first day since I've been fully back on tamoxifen that I've felt like myself. I'm not dragging myself around in a haze and still have some energy even after walking an extra 50 minutes on top of the hour that I had done in the morning. My head is still a bit foggy but I suspect that will never go away - hopefully it will improve some more as I often don't feel very alert to what is going on around me. It’s a bit discouraging as I was so happy to get some of my brain back after I stopped lithium 2 years ago - alas, it's even worse…

Friday night we had some last minute guests. Olaf & Steph came after work on Friday for a short visit - they were gone by 10:30 the next morning. It was fun to see them… although I was in bed 2 hours before everyone else!

On Friday I got busy with a bit of cooking and had two failures and one near failure :-( First I burnt the chickpeas to a blackened crisp. Dooh. Then I made scarpaccia from zucchini that we'd pre prepped and frozen last summer… It was on the verge of turning black when I took it out of the oven. We were able to rescue some of it but it didn't turn out like it normally does. Then the focaccia! That can't burn! It's too much darn work to get it to that point (as was the scarpaccia but let's not go there!)... so I set the timer for 16 minutes instead of the 19 that it normally takes. It came out on the dark side of perfect at the reduced time! If I had gone by the normal time it would have burned!

What the actual heck! I burned things in two different ovens… but, both the scarpaccia and the focaccia were in the big oven. My theory is that the garlic oil that I used had more suspended particles that were maybe more prone to burning… I guess I'll have to run a few experiments (but even though I feel better today than I have for a while, I do not have the energy to futz around with the oven…)

This morning Carm took the dogs out like normal and as I was fixing their breakfast in the kitchen I happened to look out the window and there on the fence down by the barn was a giant owl! I grabbed the binocs and watched it for ages. The dogs were sniffing around but it didn't fly away until Carm wandered down - he didn't see it until it flew away! There are so many squirrels and mice around that it could feast for days. 

Awesome!

“a quiet night in”

“feasting on finger food”

“the owl!”

“flocks and flocks of geese overhead”

“my amazing sketchers that I wear on the treadmill everyday! Still going strong after over a 1000 km!”