It's sunny this morning but I can see dark clouds to the west so I guess it isn't going to last for much longer. We did have a little taste of spring on Sunday and Monday but unfortunately I didn’t really get outside to enjoy it.
I'm doing better but not great yet… I’ll be back to myself soon but have had to get through a few days of extreme fatigue and brain fog. I'd forgotten that a swing up is always followed by a crash down that is more physical than emotional. And yes, I guess I did have a swing up first… at least according to Carm… I had little alarm bells in my head last week when I felt I could do everything and anything but I chose to ignore them, hoping that it was just a normal mood state.
Alas… the crash this time was hard mentally but that's mostly passed and I'm left feeling like a damp rag with no energy or strength. My brain is foggy and it's difficult to string two thoughts together, but it's a neutral feeling without upset or anguish. It's almost as if I went through an extreme physical challenge and now I'm left just feeling drained. It's nearly impossible to push through… so I've spent a few days in bed just staring at the ceiling, too fatigued to do more than mindlessly scroll through FB, and even that is too much effort at times. It's almost like having a really bad flu without the congestion but instead of a virus to fight, I'm fighting myself. I have to remind myself that it won't last forever! Soon I'll be raring to go again!
Luckily there isn't too much going on this week! There was zumba yesterday but I stayed at the back of the room and shuffled my feet around, trying to look like I was having fun when all I wanted to do was grab my stuff and wait in the car… but I didn't want to draw attention to myself so I did my best which was pretty darn pathetic! Next class will be better! 😀
Sunday night we were invited to Trudie & Leo's for supper but I sent Carm by himself and barely emerged from my warm cocoon the whole time he was gone.
Did I mention that we lost Adia for a while on Tuesday last week? It was the snowy day, so we were able to eventually find her tracks which we followed down the creek. This time of year the creek is not a sleepy, meandering waterway but is instead a roaring river that would wash her away to never be found again… luckily we picked up her footprints a bit further down the creek and then saw that she went over a low spot in the fence. Onto the road. Carm went one way and I went the other. Finally, after over 30 minutes of looking and calling I saw her way way way across the field on the other side of the road - a busy, high speed road 😱 . Luckily she was able to hear me and came running.
Nothing like a bit of adrenaline to start the day!
A sure sign of spring today! We changed the tires from winters to summers :-) Hopefully that doesn't summon the winter gods back! I say ‘we’ when really it's Carm doing the heavy work. I just stand around looking beautiful and handing him the correct tools - merely decorative and not that useful! But I am a second set of eyes to make sure all the lugs get tightened!
Awesome!
“snow gone again”
“icicles in the pool - we are finally starting to see the giant ice block melt”
“little bursts of sunshine”
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